19
May

For all the “Abigails” out there

   Posted by: dancingkim   in Thoughts From The Journey

Today I am pondering the story of Nabal and Abigail, or should I say Abigail and God.

Concerning the above, the name “Nabal” means fool.  All of us have probably met “fools” in our lives – people who do not fear God and will not listen to and seem unable to comprehend common sense.  Some of us have been in situations where we have had to submit to fools – whether a dysfunctional set of parents or a husband who is not submitted to the Lord, an abusive boss etc.

When a person finds herself or himself in a situation where she (or he) has to submit to a leader who very clearly is a fool, it can become very disheartening.  It can seem like a sort of imprisonment because you see what is necessary and you have talents and abilities that could help bring about a good resolution, but instead, you have to submit to being led by a fool and at times, suffer the consequences of a situation you did not create nor wish upon yourself.  It’s easy to fall into self pity and discouragement, feeling trapped and powerless.  However, the story of Abigail shows us that there is a third way – rather than being a victim or being rebellious, we can submit to the Lord and He will take up our cause. In this regard, while we may not be able to change the situation we find ourselves in, we can change and affect the degree to which it effects our lives.

Looking at how Abigail conducted herself, she didn’t do a “woe is me” when she heard of David’s intent to destroy her husband’s household.  Instead, she went to action.  She made intercession.  And the future King David spared her life and her household.  In other words, HER RIGHTEOUS ACTIONS HAD MORE IMPACT THEN HER LEADER’S (husband’s) FOOLISH ACTIONS!

As referenced above, although Abigail’s righteousness could not change the heartbreak of being unequally yoked, it could effect a good outcome in the situations to which she applied herself and interceded. And in the end, her heartache was mended. You know the story – Nabal is removed from the scene. David hears of it and sends for Abigail to be his wife. THE KING REMEMBERED HER.

I read an online sermon today entitled “What to do if you’re married to a jerk.”  The preacher used the story of Nabal and Abigail as the context for his sermon.  One thing he noted that struck me was that “Abigail gave God time to work.”  Although in Abigail’s situation, she had the immediate reward of singlehandedly turning away her then husband’s enemy, that was only the beginning; God was at work.  Ultimately she reaped the reward of being wed to a man worthy of her virtue.

Even when Abigail was yet subject to Nabal yet God Himself was her husband.  God was her leader.  He made up the difference for the deficit of an incompetent husband.  In deed, He was with her to give her wisdom, strength and favor with David and GOD’S INTERVENTION WAS STRONGER THAN THE ACTIONS OF THE FOOL TO WHICH SHE WAS SUBJECT. Her story shows us we should not allow the foolishness or godlessness of others to turn us back from still striving to be all that God has called us to be because God can still work in such situations and He is also a God who remembers and rewards faithfulness.

So for those who find themselves in a situation like Abigail, whether in marriage or the work place or otherwise, I encourage you to turn to the Lord and make intercession. Just as God does not want anyone to perish, but looks for those who will stand in the gap so He can answer their prayers to save those for whom they interceed, so too the Lord does NOT want you to suffer the consequences of a foolish husband, or an abusive boss etc. He wants you to turn to Him so that He can intervene and over ride the power and harm of these other ungodly forces. And more than that, He wants to heal your broken heart. Like the story of Abigail reminds us, sometimes we just need to give God time to work.

I say all that knowing that when we find ourselves in unfair or abusive situations we can find ourselves asking “God, how could You let this happen?” But the question we need to ask is, “God, how do You want to help me through this?” We need to hold on to the reality of truth – that God is for us and not against us, and that no matter how weary we get of dealing with the same crap again and again, we will see God’s glory and breakthrough again and again. As the word says, “when the enemy comes in like a flood, the Lord will raise up a standard.” So to those dealing with Nabal’s I declare:  God will recompense you for what you have endured at the hands of fools. He will not be mocked. He is jealous over His people. There will be a day when He will pay you back for what was stolen.

Sometimes, even if we see God’s intervention in response to our intercession in our present dealings we can still grow weary and disheartened that we continue to have to put up with the challenges of being subject to a fool. But if we know that there will come a day when we will be rewarded for our suffering, the weariness is eased some.  And so I also declare to you:  God is at work on your behalf and He hears your cries.  There will be an appointed time when He will recompense you and heal your heart. You will see His glory.

So let us turn our eyes away from those who wound us and dishearten us, from those who have brought harm and affliction to us, and turn them upon the One who sees, who remembers and who rewards the godly and heals our wounds.

Though for awhile, the wheat and the tares will grow up together – and so you may need to endure a ‘fool’ for a season, in the end, the Lord will remove the tares, or remove you from them.  He will plant you amidst the wheat where you will flourish like a tree planted by streams of water.  Healing will come and you will weep no more for the former years.  Rather, you will laugh.

When it comes to Nabal’s in the context of marriage, you might not be married to a full time “fool,” but maybe there are times when your husband does not seem to be walking in God’s ways or making your life easier.  It can be confusing when your husband can be your best friend one minute and a fool that brings you harm the next.  There is a very real experience of having the heart crushed.  I have no answers to take away the pain of that.  But I do come with hope to tell you that God understands, and as you bring the pain to Him He will give you the strength to carry on; He will even make something beautiful of your life in the midst of the heartache.

After all, God knows what it is like to be unequally yoked!  In fact, I heard the Lord tell me that many years ago when I was having to bear up around someone who was reminding me more of Nabal than of King David.  the Lord told me:  “I know what it’s like.  Remember, My Bride.  She is not the mature partner My heart cries out to have…not yet.  I know how it feels to be alone and without.”  Although that did not change the situation in which I found myself, it did bring me deep comfort and peace and allowed me to put My trust in God and carry on.  And eventually, I came to the same conclusion as Abigail:  I will take action.

Even today, and hopefully always, I will interceed and entrust myself to God, knowing that whatever situation or person may impede my path with it’s foolishness, it will not stop the kingdom of God from going forth in me and bearing fruit, and in the end, I will reap a harvest.  And so will you!

Therefore, “let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up.”  Galatians 6:9

 

Here’s the link to the sermon I referenced about Abigail. It’s called “What to do when You’re Married to a Jerk” by Chris Kelly.

http://www.sermoncentral.com/sermons/what-to-do-when-youre-married-to-a-jerk-chris-kelly-sermon-on-marriage-obligations-52935.asp

 

 

 

8
Apr

He has Risen!

   Posted by: dancingkim   in Thoughts From The Journey

This resurrection day I am reflecting on what Jesus accomplished for us on the cross.  The depths of His grace and the power of the resurrection cannot be contained in a few words, but it’s good to start somewhere. ..
Because of what Jesus did, we have an open door to forgiveness and healing.  The word for “salvation” in the greek is “sozo” and it doesn’t just refer to salvation from sins, but also healing and deliverance.  Salvation means we are saved and healed through Christ’s amazing sacrifice!  Isaiah 53 tells us that He carried both our our sicknesses and diseases as well as taking the punishment for our transgressions and iniquities.  Colossians 2:15 says He disarmed the powers of darkness through the cross!  That means that whatever the devil throws at us, Christ has already overcome it.  So when we call on God to help us in our battle against sin and the devil, God’s provision for us is already there and the victory already won!
  Because of Christ, we are saved from hell.  Because of Christ we are delivered from sin.  Because of Christ we are set free from sickness.  Although, we must contend as soldiers of light to see these things manifested on the earth, let’s pray as Jesus taught us:  “Your kingdom come, Your will be done on earth as it is in heaven.”  God wants to bring His kingdom forth in your life!  He wants to co-labor with you to see it come forth in this world!  He wants to see people saved, people healed, and lives delivered and restored.  And this is all possible because Jesus Christ died and rose again!
Because of what Jesus accomplished on the cross, it is possible to see God’s will unfold in the midst of even the darkest of circumstances.  Today we celebrate that fact.  We celebrate the third day – the day of Resurrection, the moment when God turned around the blackest hour and shone forth His greatest glory…and you know what? For those of us who are in Christ – we too will rise again from the depths of whatever has gotten us down!
The Spirit of resurrection lives in every believer and the power of resurrection is at work in our lives (Romans 8:11).  We are a blessed people because of God’s great love in sending His Son.
“Today every human being alive is benefiting from the resurrection of Jesus. Whether people believe on Him as Lord or hate Him they are all benefiting. Because of what He did the world is at this moment free from the wrath of God. Today, none of us are getting what we deserve. At any moment we choose we can experience God’s perfect love. I pray that sometime today, in your own way you will reflect on the fact that God loved you so much that He sent Jesus and thank Him for His incredible love.” ~ Dr Jim Richards

Here is a link to listen to “There is a Redeemer” by Keith Green.  Very moving song.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=f3_Ufa9pdbQ&feature=related

23
Mar

Without Distraction

   Posted by: dancingkim   in Thoughts From The Journey

WITHOUT DISTRACTION

2012 has been an okay year so far.  This is a welcomed change after over a decade of difficult ones, and in particular the last three wherein I attempted, with my husband to have a house built.  More than a just a shelter, we wanted it to be a house of prayer where we would finally have a resting place to pursue the things that had been in our hearts for so long, and in this way, to also provide a resting place for the Lord in our lives.

We’re living in that house now, but the sense of rest is yet to be had.  Certainly things are easier now than they were during the three crushing years of dealing with three disappointing builders.  I mean, the house is finally ours…but it stands unfinished, due to the nature of how things went.  It’s liveable, but rather than providing a sense of rest, I find myself having to find ways to distract from where the outcome fell so short of my expectations and the burdens I feel toward somehow being able to complete it.

Recognizing that I am still trying to distract myself from the stress of the journey, rather than finally being able to settle into the rest I expected was initially quite devastating.  In my early attempts to find some rhyme and reason to the storms around me I reached out for prayer.  At that time a brother shared a word that the Lord wanted to bring freedom from the present burdens so that I could do His will without the distractions of financial struggle etc. that I was now feeling.  He compared it to living with chronic pain and how the pain is always there in the background even when you’re doing other things, so at some level you’re distracted.  Living some degree of ongoing pain most days, I appreciated that someone had put into words what I have experienced for so long – only I had always expressed it as feeling my life was on hold.  Instead of living my life I was now having to cope with the enemy in my land and learn how to survive that instead.  And sadly, during much of the past three years I have not simply had to distract myself from the state of my overall health, but from the state of my overall life – ouch!  Of course, there is always a redemptive element in any situation when the Lord Jesus is present, and in this one it would be that when I seek to find distraction from the circumstances I don’t always have the ability to face well, I do find it…in Him!

I mean, I once looked to the Lord to bless my circumstances, but now I hold on to Him for dear life so as to rise above them!  And He always makes a way.  How I love Him for that!  He is teaching me, through these things to rise above the storm through my faith in Him to soar rather than looking to my own life any longer to be my wings.  In truth, my life, being like a storm those past years gave me the escape velocity I needed to rise above the very circumstances that tried to drag me down!

At the same time though, I’m still waiting, still praying, still believing for the day that life will be simpler again…even if it’s been over a decade since I felt that kind of sense of safety and prosperity.  Because I’m grateful that I can distract myself from my “life,” I do believe that life is meant to be more than something to survive and overcome – it is to be lived.  And to be honest, I have this deep feeling of not having been able to start living yet.  Rather, I’m holding on for the day when the life of destiny I had once dreamed and touched, the life that got interrupted when brokenness touched my world…is restored to me.

Nonetheless, this pain is preparation for that day.  Of that, I am very convinced.  For it is in these “distractions” that I find a life beyond my own to carry me through – Christ’s life, and so all the while I am waiting to run with Him, I am being upheld and filled by Him as He meets my needs in this pressured existence where outward progress often feels so impeded.

Ironically, although I am daily praying for HIS kingdom to come and fill my world, I am being filled with His kingdom on the inside – prepared to rule and reign with Him when “that day” of breakthrough finally frees me from this day of distraction.  I am waiting for “that day” when, rather than fixing my gaze upon Him out of such desperate need, (though I pray I will always know my need for Him), I will be free to fix my gaze wholly upon Him out of the utter gratitude and unfettered joy for the victory that will have finally come…without distraction.

Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day.  For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all.  So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal.

  (1 Corinthians 4:16-18)

4
Mar

Sifted – Restored – Promoted!

   Posted by: dancingkim   in Thoughts From The Journey

I have been listening to an amazing sermon the past few days.  The sermon is about Peter, and how he was changed from a fearful, broken man into a man who stood up for Christ on many occasions, even dying a martyr’s death in the end.  This transformation came about through Peter’s relationship with Jesus, especially when Jesus spoke to him in his darkest hour, with words of love and affirmation.

A few days before hearing the sermon I was working on a portion from a Beth Moore bible study on gentleness/submission.  I was reading where Jesus says satan asked permission to sift Peter and God had granted it.  When I read that,  I asked the Lord “Why do You allow sifting?”  (I mean Jesus could have just rebuked the devil and spared Peter the pain!  But He didn’t, so He must have had a reason).   We all know trials build character, but I was reaching out to God for a more personal answer, and suddenly I saw things in these Scriptures I hadn’t before.

I saw that after Peter was tested and Jesus came to restore him, He didn’t merely love on him, but He promoted him.  He said “Feed My sheep.”  i.e. “I have a ministry for you; this is it – take care of those I love.”

So I realized that sifting, though painful, often precedes a blessing! God actually expanded Peter’s call and influence once the test was over!

But why can’t we skip the sifting and just go right to the blessing?  Peter’s life helps us understand…

Throughout the gospels we see that Peter was very self reliant (and self willed) – he put confidence in his own efforts to do things for God.  However, the sifting and Peter’s failure in it were God’s tool to make Peter dependent on him.  At the same time, the brokenness Peter would have felt created in him a new humility and from there the Lord could bless him with greater kingdom responsibility without Peter becoming proud or thinking he earned it.  So God allows us to be sifted in order to humble us and create a greater dependence on Him which is often in direct correlation to a great blessing about to be bestowed – whether a call to ministry/kingdom ‘promotion’ or a material blessing or simply knowing God in a new and more awesome way after.  The same thing happened with Job – after he was sifted by the devil, God gave him twice as much as before and revealed Himself to Job powerfully!

So as far as spiritual dynamics, it seems to go like this:

The devil asks God for permission to sift us.  The devil’s plan is to test us, have us fall and then come as the accuser of the brethren to condemn us and make us feel so bad about ourselves that we’ll give up.  If we give up, we become unproductive in our lives as we no longer have the confidence to do what God calls us to as His children, His ministers etc.  IN other words the devil wants to  tear us down and also make us ineffective as workers in God’s kingdom work.  That’s the devil’s plan for sifting us.

However, God has another plan.  Quite the opposite!  God allows the trial in order to reveal more of Himself to us and to make us even more fruitful.  In truth, when we are sifted we are being positioned to receive a new experience of God’s mercy and restoration which will often lead to increased fruitfulness in the kingdom!!

In Peter’s case, we can also see how that sifting was training to stand a future test when it really counted.  i.e.  Peter ultimately died a martyr’s death, and he could only do that because he had learned submission and dependance on the Lord through the earlier events in his life.  i.e. the Lord had to allow circumstances in Peter’s life that would sift him in order to teach him to overcome his own self reliance and his fear of man.  Peter needed to learn these lessons in order to be prepared for perhaps his greatest test of all which as noted was submitting himself to die a martyr’s death for God’s glory.

So Peter was transformed through the sifting…but not simply through the sifting; he was transformed because he met Jesus – the Healer and Friend of sinners in a special way after the trial was passed.  It is God’s glory (His Person, His friendship) revealed after the sifting that really transforms us.  (This is what the sermon focuses on).

I never quite saw it like that – how there is often such a strong and direct correlation between the trials God allows in our lives and what He is preparing us for.  But God answered my question about why He allows His people to be sifted:  In order to transform us to prepare us for what is to come!  That’s good news because it means God has a plan!

So though the devil sifts us to try to cut us down, as Christians God uses that sifting to ultimately lift us higher in His purposes!   (James 4:6,7). Yay God!  “The LORD upholds all who fall and lifts up all who are bowed down.” (Psalm 145:14).

Not only that but whereas the devil wants to come in the sifting to kick us when we’re down with accusations, God comes in compassion, revealing His great love to us, as He did with Peter!  (listen to the sermon about this – it is so good!)

By the way the sermon I am referring to doesn’t focus so much on God’s purpose in sifting, but it completes the picture by focusing on how God’s presence transforms us when we go through being sifted and meet with our own failures and limitations, even as Peter did.  (Peter’s journey focused on in the sermon).  It’s worth listening to.

http://www.stadiumvineyard.org/index.php?option=com_sermonspeaker&view=seriessermon&Itemid=20

Scroll down about a third of the way down the page and click on this one:

The Place of His Presence(Sunday, 10 July 2011)

 

31
Jan

The God Who Sees

   Posted by: dancingkim   in DREAMS ONCE DREAMED

A song spilled forth today as I sang my sorrow at the keyboard.  I began to sing each line, and then grabbed a pen, and the whole song poured out.  It wasn’t until the end that I realized the title was to be “The God who Sees” and that this was the name Hagar gave the Lord when He met her at the apex of her own broken dreams.

After fleeing from a situation that was crushing to her spirit the Lord met her and told her to ‘go back and submit.’  It wasn’t that God didn’t care about Hagar’s unhappiness but that it was better for her to submit in a difficult situation than to die in the desert.  However, the Lord also sent her back with a promise that she would have a son and that He would multiply her offspring.  Hagar could still dream, she would just have to do it in the midst of difficult circumstances.

And so, Hagar could go back to the situation she fled because now she had seen the One who saw her – she had a confidante, a friend whom she knew saw and understood all the pain she had endured.  So when her mistress would further mistreat her, she now had a strength to draw upon that she didn’t have before encountering God in the desert.  Hagar knew, even if unloved and unappreciated by her mistress, God loved and appreciated her, and in spite of man’s betrayal of her,  God would fulfill His purposes for her…God remembered Hagar.  God saw her in her distress and He revealed Himself to her with a promise of His ongoing blessing in her life.

 

The God Who Sees

You are the God who sees.

You are the God who remembers.

You are the God who knows what I’ve endured.

 

You are the God who cares.

You are the God who has known me.

You are the God who was there when I first dreamed.

 

And now as I stand on this mountain alone,

And lay my head down on Your chest.

Here in this place where the eagles can soar

and dreams rise higher than they ever did before,

I am kneeling down at Your feet – waiting for destiny;

feeling Your hand holding me though I weep,

I’m waiting here where dreams still reach.

(because…)

 

You are the God who knows

You are the God who remembers

You are the God who danced o’er my soul.

 

You are the God who comes.

You are the God who answers.

You are the God who has counted all my tears.

 

And now as I turn to the Author of life,

And breathe my last breath of hope,

I’m counting on His mercy to revive me again,

and show me the way to cope

until I arise from His feet

to embrace once more destiny

in the glory that rises from the tears I weep,

the glory that restores me from the years that keep,

it’s the glory of Your holiness

because You are the God who remembers

and I remember this:  You are the God who sees me!

“She gave this name to the LORD who spoke to her: “You are the God who sees me,” for she said, “I have now seen the One who sees me.”  (Genesis 16:13).